I suppose I have received enough inquiries regarding commissions and requests to outline my stance on these matters.
For those loath to read this wall of text, I shall provide the same information in video form:
I cannot in good conscience accept your commissions. This is because I believe that my skill and available time to work on animations is not sufficient for me to be able to guarantee that I will deliver a respectable result. Additionally, there is the matter of motivation. I have learned that I must avoid feeling 'obligated to work' on something I consider a hobby. This has significantly drained my enthusiasm for projects in the past. And so, I think it wouldn't be fair of me to sell you a commission. Should these factors change in the future, then so will my stance on commissions.
If you have a suggestion for me, and I like your suggestion, then I will try to work your ideas into my animations. It's always nice to hear what kind of animation you enjoy. However, I can't promise I will deliver.
I want to make more and better animations. However, good assets and good lessons cost money. I do and will continue to spend my own money on these projects. But I am not wealthy and sometimes I don't have any change to spare. So please support me through Patreon or with a one-time donation via Paypal. I won't spend the support on my personal cost of living. My job will cover that. Any amount pledged will unlock my patreon-only content. Which includes previews, single-images, and discontinued works. If you have any suggestions for other patreon rewards, please let me know!
In any case,
I want to thank everyone for the overwhelmingly positive responses and friendly messages I have received. Thank you. You're awesome. And take care!
>>> www.vexorum.com/support.html <<<
I've had surgery on my shoulder on the 18th. There's been plenty of pain and nausea. The recovery is expected to take 6 weeks. I do not like anti-biotics because they have messed up my digestion. I have some good painkillers. Operating a computer with one hand is not fun. I do not expect to be very productive for another week at least. And that sucks because I wanne make things!
Thanks for reading,
About my shoulder:
I'm going in for surgery mid-January. After that I will not be allowed to move my left arm at all, for 6 weeks. After that, I'll need half a year of physical therapy. I do not look forward to this at all. But I have little choice. Worst will be up to half a year of no sports! I don't want to loose what little physical strength and fitness I have!
About 3D animations:
It's going awesomely! I'm having much fun even though plenty of frustrations are involved. It's just so incredibly satisfying, running into difficult and confusing problems and then not giving up until they're solved. I love it. I have actually produced some very simple test animations already. But I haven't dared post any yet. I did however... post some related questions and did a voice-reveal on my youtube channel. If you care enough to find the channel by guessing the name, then you can hear my voice! (How hard can it be?!)
I have no idea what holiday gifts I'd like to receive. It has frustrated local friends/family because they don't know what to get, while I know what to get them. I have been unable to correct this imbalance. So I thought I'd ask you! What should be a good gift for this Vex? Keep it cheap!
I am well. I hope you are too. Thank you for reading. You're awesome.
Worlds and Cities
Remember this: vexorum.deviantart.com/journal… ?
Well, that happened again yesterday evening. I'm back in the sling. I'm back on the couch. I'm back in pain, and functioning at less than half capacity.
This is the fourth time I have dislocated my left shoulder. Because of this, my shoulder has almost certainly weakened to the point where it can no longer keep my arm in place properly, even after all the more immediate trauma has healed. Side-note: This isn't muscular weakness I'm talking about. It's weakness of the ligaments of the shoulder joint. This means that I'm very likely to dislocate it again.
Oh no! My mortal weakness is revealed!
Now there is a chance that I am eligible for surgery. I don't have any of the details yet but for what I could make out, it sounds very similar to an ankle or knee re-enforcement procedure. If I can do the surgery, I think I will because I plan to be using my left arm for several more years to come.
In other news!
I've been tinkering away at the task of rigging my 3D model. This is the process of setting up joints and controls to enable the model to be animated. It's a lot of fun and a lot of hard work and more often than not fairly confusing. It's going to take quite a whole longer before I have got some rig-test animations to show you. But I promise you, they will appear! So stay tuned!
I hope you're well. Thanks for reading, and take care!
Worlds and Cities
I've been keeping myself rather busy. This is by choice, partly. There are so many things I want to do in addition to all the things I have to do. I'd definitely say the latter have been overshadowing the former in the past few weeks. But that balance should soon change... I hope.
Anyway, I thought I'd do something community-y. I hardly ever do these, but I've poked this particular meme twice already. Once from AWitchByAnyOtherName and once from CamaroLp. So I thought it's only fair I spread it. The idea is: If you post a comment to this journal I shall perform the operations listed below.
1- Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your page for 10 seconds.
2- Tell you a color you remind me of.
3- Tell you what element I believe you belong to (water, fire, air, etc.).
4- Tell you what OC(s) of yours is/are my favorite(s).
5- Ask you a question, and you must answer.
6- Tell you something I like about you.
7- Give you a nickname.
8- Tell you what am I doing right now.
9- Tell you what food/flavor/smell you remind me of.
10- Dare you to do one of these in your journal too, if you haven't already.
I hope you are well. Thank you for reading.
Worlds and Cities
I'm doing OK. I hope you are well. I haven't posted much art recently. Although I have some stuff in the works, it seems there won't be many new uploads from me any time soon. I've been channelling many of my creative juices into a project that I haven't shared with most of you... until now. I started it in late December 2015.
Yeah... you see... it still needs a name. It's called DoStuff simply because I was tired of not doing stuff. I'm open to suggestions! The game is a kind of spacetravel-sim with unrealistic physics. v0.6 has:
- Build your own craft using several different kinds of parts with various functions.
- Explore a for now rather featureless solar system which contains 4 planets and 1 star. (Stay away from the white one... and the star, of course.)
Things I plan to make:
- Dynamic planets with interesting terrain, perhaps some mysterious structures with stories to tell? some alien flora and fauna, anyone?
- Many more ship parts and decorative components.
- Weapon systems and enemies to blow up.
- Hyperdrives, so you can discover and explore many systems.
- Online multiplayer! Run into other players. See what they have built. Cooperate... or, not.
- Maybe... just maybe, everyone's favorite space dragon will show up?
This is one hell of a backlog. I'm building this thing all by myself, so definitely don't hold your breath. Perhaps once the whole project is more mature and less likely to be abandoned, I could invite others to help. Ultimately, I'd like to approach fellow world-builders and ask how they would like it if their world made a cameo appearance in this game! A world with characters, structures and a story line or two would make for some amazing content and this game would be a neat platform to display your world... I'd think. Anyway, I'm vulnerable to the trap of imagining infinite possibilities and losing sight of the steps right in front of me. So for now, I must focus on one feature at a time. I'm still ironing out the very basics. But so far, this project is going much, much better than all of my previous game-building attempts.
How would you like some screenshots?!
You can't have space without planets!
It's very far away, but you could get there...
Items. Every game needs items.
How would you like to try v0.6 yourself?!
You can download it from my (old and ugly and in need of a redesign) site: vexorum.com
I'd love to hear your comments on this project.
Thank you for reading.
Worlds and Cities
Although my animations are colorless and kind of sketchy-looking, I really enjoy making them. (Despite the fact that I consistently draw Vex too fat and with the wrong kind of feet...) I'd like to do more of them. I've got some in the works but feel I'm low on fresh ideas. Also I'd like to draw different characters and change things up a little. So I thought why not ask for ideas from you in the form of art requests.
What I enjoy animating:
- Characters interacting. (short story, dialog, comic, etc.)
- Characters demonstrating their special skills/abilities. (Bonus points for transformation/shapeshifting.)
What you should know:
- I'm not guaranteeing anything.
- If I take your request I'll make your character(s) look as good as I can, but I might have to skip some details for time-consumption's sake.
- If you're requesting an animation from me, you may include one of my characters Vexorum or Teneo in your plot if you'd like.
Skull and Chicken
Thank you for reading.
Worlds and Cities
Vexorum & Teneo:
Vexorum & Echo:
It's time for a general update. I'm well. My left arm (for those who read my previous journal) is still attached. This is a positive factor of significant impact. Physical therapy and daily exercises are responsible for this. Both my learning the martial arts Hanmudo and general workouts are going well. I enjoy them and I feel much healthier than I used to. At work I've recently learned that it's very likely that I'm not being considered for the more advanced tasks/assignments, not for any reason related to me or my skills, but rather for political reasons. My battle plan is as follows: Finish up the assignments I've committed to. And then if I am denied for the opportunities I seek, I'll leave.
I wish there was a way to remove DA users from the 'Watching You' list. I've got a whole bunch of watchers according to DA. But I know there are only, pretty much... 4 people alive in there. (Hi guys! You're the best!) I wish I could trim down the list to be more representative of reality. That is all.
I've been uploading one or two sketches every weekend since January. I hope you've enjoyed them and I hope they didn't feel too spam-y to your inboxes. When I started posting regularly, I had a pile of sketches in the upload queue. Today, that pile ran out. (Sort of.) I'll be making more sketches and posting them, of course. But I'm aching to do a full-color image. I want to enlist your help.
Please choose from my Sketches folder (here: vexorum.deviantart.com/gallery… ) which work you'd like to receive color. You may choose a few, if you must. Post a link or the title in a comment on this journal, please.
Please consider: I find concepts more important than sketches. If you really like the idea or concept behind a sketch but the sketch itself isn't good, Please Say So. I can always redo it for a full-color image.
You may wonder why I am asking you to help me choose which works to color. I'm asking because my time is limited and in the past I have spent much effort working on full-color images which perhaps didn't really deserve the time when they were sketches. My weeks-sometimes-months-worth of work would enjoy 40 views total and 0 responses of any kind. Clearly they weren't very good then, and that's fine. But it would be nice to know that beforehand. This is why I want your input.
Thank you for reading. And thank you for staying tuned.
As a result of my injury, I have been forced to give up my side of the two-player bed in favor of the couch in the living room. This is because uncontrolled movements during sleep can be very damaging and my side is on the side of the bed where I would sleep on my left shoulder. I'm wearing a sling 24/7 and combined with the tininess of the couch, it restricts my nighttime movements nicely.
The living room is on the south side of my tiny condo. There are blinds on the windows, but they usually remain open. We're on the top floor. As a result of these circumstances, for the past few nights I've been sleeping under a blanket basked in moonlight as the skies have been clear and the moon close to full. I would have been able to say that nothing about these circumstances is nice... (I don't like sleeping on the couch, I don't like having 1 operational arm, I don't like the pain nor the painkillers, and oh am I tired of the sling) but that is nice.
Many if not most of my sketches I don't want to post online or aren't eligible for public display. Sometimes, I will remove parts of a sketch so that it meets DA's requirements. I'll try to do this in a non-intrusive way.
I don't have a scanner. I'm using a photo camera to take images, then I'm using software to attempt to correct the lighting. It's impossible to get the images evenly lit. My main concern is to preserve the line-art as clearly as possible, not to create an accurate digital representation of the physical image.
I welcome any constructive criticism. The aim is always to improve. If you think a particular sketch (or part of a sketch) deserves to be turned into a full-color image, please let me know.
Cities and Worlds
Something for a worldbuilder's soul. Have a look: vexorum.deviantart.com/journal… I wouldn't mind expanding this list. But oh, which places to add?
Look! aedensolus.deviantart.com/jour… Someone's giving away cheap commissions. I'd purchase one, though this month I'm all out of cash. Murphy strikes again.
I've updated the site. Music downloads and Tools are back online as well as a few other things. Have a look! vexorum.com
For a long time, I had a little webserver of my own. I used it mostly for data storage and some code/web-development experimentation. It ran a very simple web page where I posted updates about my projects and published the quality MP3s of my musical creations. This site used to be available at vexorum.com. It used to be, because the old laptop I was using to run the server has been retired with honors after many years of faithful service.
Now that I don't have a place to experiment any more, I have to rewire vexorum.com to Somewhere, so I decided to direct it here.
I'm stupid. DNS servers don't take links, they take IP addresses. So, I cannot redirect vexorum.com to here. Hmm... what do? I'll figure something out!
MP3 downloads of my music is currently not available. If you are looking to download, please let me know via a comment, note or e-mail and I will find a way to get the data to you. My creations can be listened to on youtube.
Time for a more general update. I'm doing well. I have several drawings in the works but I'm afraid none of them will be uploadable material. I have two songs in progress that could be finished soon and that I will definitely announce. Work is hard, living is expensive, days are short and spare time is scarce. Business as usual.
Is there a way to disable these Llama badges?
Update Update Update
Vexorum.com is back online, except... I'm still building it. So for now, it just directs you here. Not awesome, I know. But it's better than a 404.
Update Update Update Update
I regret Nothing!! Anyway, Vexorum.com is back up. There's still plenty that needs to be made. Like, actually allowing music downloads. But have a look, it's shiny.
If you are not in the mood for a complain-style journal, quit reading now. Or skip to the end of the Complain tag.
I see you're still there. OK then, stuff is breaking. Things break once in a while. But this week it's been pretty horrible. First and foremost, Lord fell ill. Much pain was and is involved. I've done what I could to help. Today we saw a doctor and we were referred to a hospital pretty much immediately. I obtained an appointment, hence I'm sure we've not seen the end of this misfortune. I shan't go into the details of us not having a particularly good insurance. But the choice between crippling agony and being broke isn't really a choice, now is it?
I use an external hard drive for most of our data. It can be accessed over the network and is thereby conveniently available from every machine that could be connected to our home network. (I know you can buy these machines. But I built one myself. (Because I think those premade ones are Way overpriced and I'm an engineer. Deal.)) The disc containing all our precious data (a little under 2 Terabytes of it) broke. Out of the blue, no warning, suddenly it just refused to engage. Dismayed, we were. You might ask yourselves, 'well if you're such a nerd, why didn't you have a backup?!'. Well, I did have a backup. It was a copy approximately a month old. Combined with what was saved on the working systems, not much was actually lost. I spent my weekend trying to find out why the disc broke. I was convinced that the drive itself was fine, and threw out the controller electronics in order to hook it up to my system directly. And what do you know? It worked just fine. So, a new disc controller had to be obtained in order to fix the home network data infrastructure. OK, no more nerdiness.
The building I live in has an underground parking garage. I've got my own little spottie, pretty nice. But the air and fire-alert systems are rather screwy. I've just spent about 2 hours listening to the fire alarm. It better not go off during the night! (again)
With lord somewhat incapacitated due to pain and lack of sleep due to pain, much of the around-the-house work falls to me. I've got to say, it in addition to my regular work is tiring. Respect to those out there who have no choice and no aid. (Thought I suppose a 2-player house is always going to be a bit more upkeep than a single player one.) I've got to keep on top of things and find some money somewhere for maintenance and repair. I just sincerely hope nothing else breaks. If something else breaks, please let it be something cheap/we didn't need/is still under warranty.
Brat's been getting commissioned and delivering his works in a timely fashion. I approve of this. So go look: AedenSolus. It's got me wondering if maybe there's something I could do to obtain some credits in exchange for creativity. Given my skill set, it seemed unlikely yet I'd be happy to be proven wrong. I thought of something else!
I've been working on a game called Project Far. It's a space-based tycoon-style game in which players must organize and expand their fleet to gain resources, achieve specific goals and complete missions. It's been under development for well over a year now and it's still looking pretty promising. I intend to publish it for free in a kind of as-is open-source package. But not until it's good and damn ready.
The game will need a lot of content; names of ships, classes of ships, stars, planets, but also graphics; 3D models of the aforementioned. How about, in a kickstarter-style fashion, I sell naming rights? Or the guarantee that when the game is released, it'll have your home-made 3D model in it? Hmm, just let me know if anyone has any interest in that. I shan't be writing a page of details if no one cares.
I need a holiday. Just one more month and I'll get some time off. Hang in there, me. I can do it!
I'm lying on my bed with my laptop, typing this. It's been years since I've done this. :b I kind of like it. I didn't miss the tiny laptop keyboard, though. Anyway, here's an update.
*waiting for siren.*
*five minutes later.*
I've been working on two new musical pieces. One is almost finished. The other is not. I've been working on my game, too. Players are now able to conduct research to unlock more game options. This feature replaces the old one of unlocking all possible researches by means of the very hard task of pressing the R key. I should definitely invest some more time in graphics and audio for the game. But I couldn't leave this gameplay feature half-implemented.
I've had a minor surgery last week. My toenail had been steadily growing into the flesh of my toe and it had become rather painful. The surgery went well. The recovery has been painful, but I'm mostly recovered. I can almost do something that resembles walking again! Yeah! I'm no stranger to this particular kind of surgery. I've had it performed on me before. To be exact, the current score is: Left foot: 3. Right foot: 1.
*waiting for siren and drill.*
Work has been heavy. It's been pretty heavy since I started working full-time back in 2010. But the current project is releasing our product to market 'soon', so everything has to be finished and bug-free of course. I've been working overtime again. It is not nice, but at least the companionship among developers is pretty good. We're all in the exact same crap together. So we might as well make questionably funny jokes at 21:00 while questionably safely testing the high-voltage converter code. Work, home-ownership, bills, insurances, all of it is basically paid for in blood, sweat and tears. It feels like it is taking all the energy I have just to stand still and maintain what I have. I realize things could be much, much worse. So mistake this not for complaining. Especially now summer is returning, life is good.
I have today and tomorrow off. I'm enjoying it.
Met vriendelijke groeten,
I've moved. I am now officially the owner of a building. Well, part of a building, technically. But it is mine. I've lived in a rented apartment for about 2 years. (1 year longer than I wanted or planned to, mind you.) Over all that time, this home was being built. It was finished about 2 weeks ago and last week, we moved in. I've spent pretty much a full week running around, carrying boxes, dumping trash, making sure people have the tools and materials to continue their tasks. Oh, it was such a blast of exhaustion. But now, most of the work is completed and it is lovely here. I'm located in the center of a non-city non-middle-of-nowhere nice town. But I'm facing away from any busy street or traffic. I'm on the second floor, get a nice view and plenty of daylight. (If the sun will ever shine... please?) Having this enormous task behind me, having successfully completed all the arranging and all the paperwork... it is simply a major workload off of my shoulder.
Somehow I doubt many of you are playing Portal 2, or know of its existence. But if you happened to know what it is and happened to play it, and happened to like it, perhaps you would like to try some of my home-cooked puzzles? You can easily download the maps via the steam system. My username is vexorum, of course. One of my recent maps called "Quadcopter" for quite a number of hits and positive feedback. I can't say I consider building these puzzles art, but it is highly entertaining in my opinion.
That reminds me! I actually have a quadcopter-toy. This one lab.westernwillow.com/sites/de… to be exact. OK, so it won't win a beauty contest. That's just fine with me. I didn't get it for its looks, OK? I love this thing. It responds so properly to the controls that it is neither a weakling nor a reckless suicide craft. I've got quite good control over it, if I say so myself. I can flip it over in mid-air or have it do some kind of crazy spinning moves. And even if it is fairly windy, I can at least keep it under control if nothing else. Anyway, I have a slight problem. I've had this baby for quite a while now and it's never really let me down. Sure it has broken some pieces in the past and I nursed it back to health. But the thing is: It has earned a name. And I cannot find a good, appropriate name. Help!
Met vriendelijke groeten,
Copying and Redistributing
Please let me know if you want to spread my work around.
Please do not pretend you created my artwork.